A new "Poem"

It's a poem but more in the form of a monologue kinda thing....

Some will cry

Some will hide

Some with scars will die

Die for no reason

Die for hate

Die for unhappiness

Their walls have fallen

With no hope to REBUILD

No one will help

The ones who cry out

'Cause no one cares

But those who do

Speak your mind

Come out

And tell it as it is

There's nothing more

Than the LOVE of a friend

The LOVE of someone who cares

Don't scare that away

For they will fear

The loss of more like you

The scars will HEAL

The STRONGER you'll be

The more you'll have to live for

REBUILD that wall

And jump over it

For you are stronger now

You don't NEED it.

Keep GOING,

FORGET the past,

Live in the NOW,

Look towards the FUTURE,

YOU are now

A NEW YOU

...I am a new ME!

It's funny sometimes

It's funny sometimes how in a week you think your life has turned for the best. Thinking you might have actually found someone but by the next week it's all gone...down the drain. I wonder how and why god does this stuff. But you know why? God is just making me a stronger person. It also doesn't help that I've been having some heart issues lately. Maybe my heart is literally breaking for once. I've been waiting for this actually. I'm giving up on searching. I barely have friends (maybe like 3) but i still have my family. Everyone has that point in life where they reach rock bottom and i guess i'm getting closer to there now. But it's "wut ev."I am a strong girl and I can move on!!!!!!!!!!!!

A little about me

My name is Tina Reams also known as Ina Marie. I'm 21 years about to turn 22 next week. I'm currently in school at a community college trying to slowly reach my dreams (kinda failing) but one day I promise I will get there. I am also a amateur poet. I've been writing poetry since 2002 right after i lost my grandma and uncle less than two months apart. Ever since all that happened to me that one year my life turned around. I've gone in and out of depression for 9 years now which brings me to why I choose to start this blog. First off i choose the name Yellow Rose cause the yellow rose symbolizes friendship and lately I've felt like i'm loosing all my friends partly cause all I do lately is been snapping at EVERYONE! Including my friends...I still can't figure out what is wrong w/ me which is why i started this blog to try and help myself. I've always been big on friends i grew up w/ no real friend till 5th grade. It hurts everyday when I think of loosing someone special to me.

The picture to the right is a picture of me and my best friend Ash. I haven't known her for many of many years I've only known her for about 7 years and it just hurts thinking i can easily loose her from me snapping all the time. Ash is the one person i go to for everything. I tell her my every secret. I completely trust her. I was recently told she was gonna move to Miami and all i could think about was great wth am I gonna do now that my best friend will be gone. Well she finally changed her mind and decided to stay. "Yippee!" But after tonight when i snapped for some unknown reason i tried apologizing to her and well still no response I fear I may have pushed it and lost her.

All I can really do is keep my head held up high and keep a hold of my faith and see what is to be brought to me. I'm gonna leave yall w/ a poem i wrote last year called Broken.

Broken

The blackend petals fall one by one

A broken love torn to pieces

The Blood stained carpet lies awaken

To the silent sound of dispair

The thornes dig in

The blood continues

A bed of dying roses

For a dying girl

This love, this hate

Which way do I chose

Heaven or hell

Am I going nowhere.

I am strong

I can live on

I’ve made my mistake

And must continue on

The blackend petals fall one by one

A broken love torn to pieces

The Blood stained carpet lies awaken

To the silent sound of dispair

To the silent sound of hope.

(Written by Christina Reams)